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1-31-00 (09:57)

worked overnight at the shelter last night...they needed someone and i got mentioned. great. at least i get 50 or so bucks.

my car took 10 mins to warm up this morning. fucking shit!

i love driving it and i love feeling so superior in that beautifully beat up 67 bug, but i'd also like it to start cleanly and stay started while warming up.

i will get an application from kfc today. i went yesterday, but they didn't have any. need the money so it must be done.

have a story due today...finished.

very tired...four hours of class...in two hours, damn.

i will fall asleep. taking nap could be bad, maybe i should have done that when i first got here...decisions decisions.

watched two movies.

writing stories helps appreciation while watching movies or reading...i'm glad i'm taking english 5f, for that reason alone.

1-30-00 (19:09)

The superbowl was really good. I kinda wished the titans had won though. I was rooting for the rams at first and then the titans showed a lot of character and really played like champions...they may not have won the game, but they won me over.

football is the best sport ever, in my opinion.

phil came and left this weekend.

i'm done here. my candle is doing well.

1-28-00 (18:22)

i get way too many calls from the damn telemarketers. so i went online for the last two days. i got so whored out to all the lists...it's bad news kiddies.

1-28-00 (05:12)

bedtime.

dj qbert cd uses lots of cool samples, rush, street fighter II, "the catch" - love that one....those are just a few of the ones i caught, imagine how many there are, how long it took to find all that shit. damn.

a hard man is good to find, i mean a good man is hard to find.

1-27-00 (02:53)

AOL is the devil.

1-27-00 (01:00)

so wait, led zeppelin was four human beings right? that's impossible.

half the fun of candles is maintaining their shape, or crafting your own. it's no different with a 3 wick candle.

my browsers both suck. my computer sucks more. icq sucked. may need to format in near future, no biggie, just pain in the ass and waste of a day.

need more kleenex

looking for girlfriend, 2.5 years running now.

looking for job, .0833333 years running now.

we're watching movies like regular students...at this rate we'll be finished with our list of 60 or so movies in a couple months. mostly classics/must see flicks, some just cool or memorable. it's all part of our "be more like jesus" campaign. uh, not.

fucking with candles is really fun, especially when they're hot. chris you are a sick one.

1-26-00 (03:27)

a little late.

updated recent movies list.

rain song and no quarter by led zepplin (houses of the holy) are great songs. oh man life is funny.

busy busy busy, ala cat's cradle.

crazy world it is.

need job, tired, broke, system been crashing lately, who cares.

1-25-00 (20:50)

we were asked to re-write a fairy tale in a different point of view in english class. so i did.

can't believe it's already 9. damn.

1-25-00 (05:17)

just realized i'm never going to get a job. i should work at kfc.

1-25-00 (03:13)

if i have 1.5 breakfast burritos a day, which is pretty close to what i average, it comes to 45 a month - here are the totals...somewhere around 50 tortillas (sometimes i have 3 per burrito, instead of 2), 80 eggs, 2 big bottles of taco sauce, 20 lbs of potatoes, 3 lbs of cheese, 4 medium tomatoes (don't always have them on my burritos), and 3 onions. which comes out to under 39 bucks a month. this doesn't include spices (no longer use tobasco, but will when i'm rich again, pepper, garlic powder, and sometimes a pinch of salt). nor does it include the teaspoon or two of oil i use or operational costs...microwave for potato and gas for stove. i imagine, though, that it's down to a minimum since i do it pretty quickly, especially relative to boiling water which usually takes 15 minutes...

per day i average 189% of my daily allowed cholesterol...all from eggs since i almost never use butter, unless i have pasta.

cheese is the most expensive element in my recipe and i've cut down on consumption in this area so it's down under 3 lbs a month.

this all started because i wondered how expensive it was to eat the way i do, and since all i eat, with some exceptions depending on mood, availability, etc. is breakfast burritos i thought i'd figure all this out. last month i spent 76 bucks on food, this takes into account free meals at parents' houses, but i also ate out a lot, so that cancels out. the month before...when i ate breakfast burritos more than any other month i spent 74 bucks on food. the month before that i spent 191 on food, but that's mostly because we went to costco one day and i fed people burritos every weekend for the whole month. the month before that was when i first had the burrito revelation and i spent 99 bucks on food, months before that were usually around 140. either i eat less or breakfast burritos are a godsend.

each plate (minus the onion and spices) is a bit more that 818 calories...320 of which are from the tortillas!...35 grams of fat (15 saturated)...490 mg of cholesterol...40.25 grams of protein...vitamin A 29%... vitamin C 55%...calcium 47%.

too much fat and cholesterol, but overall good.

this bitch is, well, interesting.

1-25-00 (02:19)

surprise yourself today, good or bad you'll still learn.

updated the mp3 list in a massive way. 50 something songs added. new directory structure which affects no one but me.

i officially have 2 days' worth of mp3s. organizing this in a useful way is tough...at first i had everything in one directory, but that's a drag, after i had a bigger collection (say 100 songs) i changed to alphabetical directories, that wasn't very good. say i want to load several songs of the same type, but on different ends of the alphabet...also making playlists is somewhat useful, but still not good enough. then i got the idea to sort everything by what radio stations they might be played on. this worked for quite a while, but was always a bit limiting, until i added the kdvs directory. now i've limited the kdvs directory to stuff i'd play on my show (indie rock and jazz) of course when i had the show to myself i played some other stuff under electronica, but i've limited it to just indie rock and jazz for these purposes. i scrapped the radio station idea and used them only as rough guides...so now i have 15 directories and the most files in a single directory is 80 in hip-hop/dance.

in sum, i updated the main mp3 page, the mp3 list (winamp generated), the word 7.0 downloadable mp3 list, the beastie boys mp3 list, my directory structure, but NOT the stupid text version list which makes it easier for you to view. i don't care about you so that's why. oh, and finally updated my mp3 wish list but that doesn't matter.

read more vonnegut today. 2 more stories, maybe a couple more before sleep, or maybe malcolm x again. or maybe i'll start 'a void' or maybe i'll realize that reading is bad again and i'll just goto sleep.

maybe i should start cataloging my LP list or my vhs list. maybe i should waste my time on something other than lists.

rain is sucking more and more.

maybe i should call this page what it really is.

getting more hits this month than last...wow.

deja vu

1-24-00 (17:00)

missed class today, that sucks.

sleep should help this cold though.

below is another of my fallen homies. long live tupac.

it's funny how many elements are similar within hip-hop, esp. kool moe dee, public enemy, schoolly d, and even the beastie boys use a lot of the same samples. kool moe dee and pe use similar loud tape loops. hip hop is funny, but in my opinion cool, like that.

1-24-00 (01:16)

2pac lives on.

updated recent movies list.

need a job, need money, i'm really broke.

remember to recycle and that greed is the root of all evil. damn i love it when people listen to me.

From now on I will pour out liquor for my fallen homies - Che, 2pac, MLK, and Malcolm X.

Malcolm X Feb 21, 1965

MLK April 4, 1968

2pac Sept 13, 1996

Che October 9, 1967

the new 2pac cd is pretty good...has some elements i'm sure they added later to make it more gay hoppy, but it still holds the 2pac skills on a few tracks. kool moe dee is bumping now. with that and public enemy i have more pre 1990 hip hop to add to my MiniDisc mix.

i should become a street walker. i'm going to read now.

1-23-00 (16:49)

woke up early (for me) and watched the last part of the tennessee game and all of the st. louis game. that was good.

still sick. i get sick more often than most, but i can't remember the last time i was so sick i couldn't leave the house. thank you immune system.

1-23-00 (03:09)

read stuff for english, chapter and a half of malcolm x's autobiography, and three short stories by vonnegut. this has got to be some kind of record for me. the stories ranged from funny to kinda sad. the english story was sad. and the chapter or so on malcolm was mostly about dancing in boston when he was 16. he was a punk.

it's raining. football tomorrow should be good, hopefully i watch it.

i have a cold.

1-23-00 (00:21)

went to berkeley today to go shopping that was cool. got plenty more music than i need. my cd collection will be at 380 when i bother updating it.

saw a movie.

i'm going to read while i download free music.

okay i updated the cd list. now i'll read.

for one of the first times in my life i'm looking forward to reading...i got a collection of short stories by kurt vonnegut (my favorite)...it came in the mail from the same book club that gave me the complete works of shakespeare, ny times cookbook, and the autobiography of MLK all together for under 25 bucks. i want to finish the malcolm x bio (400 pages to go) and then start reading a few of the vonnegut stories oh and maybe some school stuff too.

1-22-00 (00:12)

my computer is being gay...hardware and software wise. could mean gayness.

didn't have sex, watched a movie instead. updated list. not going to add link because you can find it if you want.

we need a movement with a quickness.

made a mix MD today. yip.

the newest rage album fucking rocks...i was a bit turned off at first, but now i've acclimated to it and decided that it's officially better than evil empire. guess i'll have to make some changes in my lists.

1-21-00 (17:28)

what to do? study? read? movie? sex? sex it is.

1-21-00 (03:54)

i don't agree with everything malcolm x did or stood for even. for example his backing of garvey's principles is a bit extreme for me, but i've always loved and admired the way he stood up for his beliefs and was such a leader for 'his people.'

1-20-00 (22:07)

some great movies fade with the time in between viewings...others, like boogie nights and now magnolia...esp. magnolia...get better in between viewings...just from watching the music video i got goosebumps and wanted to see it again...even though i saw it just a few days ago. damn what a film.

1-20-00 (21:38)

sleep schedule sucks.

listening to white zombie more often.

saw some good computer deals on a newsgroup...486s for 10 bucks 386 (whole system, with monitor) for 10 bucks. crazy shit. it's worth 10 bucks and my time just to have a computer to have games on or something...5 dollar modem and it's online...quite amazing really.

happy birthday hattie.

usa rocks? it's up to you here are some reasons it doesn't suck as much as you've heard.

i think it's amazing how retarded we all are to think that there is actually going to be a surplus and that we should cut taxes based on this hope. i'm hoping for a candidate who will run and plainly tell everyone he's going to raise taxes...especially for the top 1% of the country.

i'd for for someone like that.

saw the GOP debates...some funny old men in there. bauer was funny, although gayish. and bush is retarded, but speaks spanish fairly well. keyes was unimpressive and too conservative. mccain was old and gimpy. hatch is mormon i'm sure. forbes is funny, but freaky. that's all.

gore is gay. bradley is the lesser of the two evils and actually isn't so evil. wish peace and freedom put someone cool out there who could win.

1-20-00 (02:34)

my friends' girlfriends are usually the only girls that appreciate me. funny like that.

start! video is good - cover of jam, by the beastie boys. funny shit, simple and directed by adrock's brother i believe.

got matrix the movie in the mail, forgot about that.

1-18-00 (12:52)

wish i watched more sports...especially hockey. i miss all that. espn is cool too.

reading can be fun, as vern the english major so often tries to remind me. it takes a lot for me to resort to reading though...but when i have, recently (cat's cradle and malcolm x's autobiography), i've been satisfied.

1-18-00 (23:13)

just finished the first little story/scene for english. it sucks.

i'm tired. i don't like school very much. i'm bored.

fucking telemarketers.

should have gone to fry's.

updated cd list. 370.

while i watch magnolia i feel like it's great and i know it is, but i know it even more after i'm sitting at my computer listening to the soundtrack or even when i just think about it. watch the fucking film.

i have a year 2000 penny.

it's better to regret something you've done than something you haven't done.

"Malcolm, there's one thing I like about you. You're no good, but you don't try to hide it. You are not a hypocrite." Mrs. Adock to Malcolm X. I'm on chapter 3 now.

1-18-00 (13:56)

you need money to make money. the rich get richer the poor get (relatively) poorer. "The boom on Wall Street is widening the income gap between the poorest and richest U.S. families, according to a report by two Washington think tanks. The earnings for the poorest fifth of American families rose less than 1% between 1988 and 1998 but jumped 15% for the richest fifth, the Center on Budget and Policy Priorities and the Economic Policy Institute said in their report issued Tuesday. Income for the poorest families, defined as two or more relatives living together, rose $110 to $12,990 during the 10-year period. For the richest families it increased by $17,870, to $137,480, more than 10 times that of the poorest sector, the report found. "

we all knew this already, but it still needs to be restated. goto www.census.gov if you really want to be blown away.

saw Katie, a girl from the YMCA, last night at safeway. she lives in davis and actually just down the street. i freakin knew her when she was ten and i was a c.i.t. at the YMCA...kinda weird. almost like a teacher seeing a former student. at any rate, that's that.

woke up to another telemarketer this morning (1:15pm). yesterday (a holiday you will recall) it was at 8am. fuckers need to die.

need to do a little bit of a paper now.

1-18-00 (01:25)

was going to write something cool here, but i forgot. maybe not cool, more like something i wanted to say/have been thinking of a lot today. darn.

need a job. mp3s are coming in, but i'm running out of wants. i've got most of the singles that i want...now to knock off my ever growing list of albums to get. need a job.

kinda cool...malcolm x in his autobiography mentions certain songs that were popular at the time...for example glenn miller and the ink spots when he was in jr. high. thought you'd like to know.

1-17-00 (01:09)

welcome to the machine. and the mass screams. a fire in the master's house is set.

updated recent movies list. the streak begins again? magnolia rocks. you should see it. however, it was depressing to see some of the retards in the theater laugh at completely inappropriate times. maybe they didn't relate to the characters or something...i honestly don't know. i do know that anyone who can't see the genius of the film needs to check themself. i was without words when the idiot behind me said the most retarded thing possible...i won't repeat it because it has something to do with the movie, but jon put it best when he turned to me and said something like "it's times like this when i wish i had a gun." exactly.

is there hope for the human race when incompassionate retards like that live in such abundance?

i'll stop now. first chapter of malcolm x is finished.

qualities that make you get elected president are often much different from those that make you a good president in the history books. this can be applied to relationships too, i think.

isn't there some quote about love growing stronger over a distance? that's bullshit.

i've been getting some really good bandwidth once in a while...uploading at 4+k/sec or downloading at 6.5 k/sec...nice.

1-16-00 (12:39)

big story for the day - i have a 17" monitor for the meantime. jon had one that didn't work on his computer so i get to use it.

other big story - fall was a good movie. updated recent movies list. the streak died yesterday.

running at 1152 x 864 resolution...video card (4 meg mystique) can actually handle it. now i'll be spoiled so soon (when i get a job) i'll start saving up for a video card and monitor...under 350 total.

another advantage of the bug - you can see how much gas you have without the gauge. =)

running out of mp3s i want. argh.

never used argh before, till now.

relating to the movie - relationships and running is the metaphor. if one hasn't run in a while he misses it, but if during this drought of running he tries to convince himself that running another race is not in his future then, at least, he is not disappointed too much. if, however, he looks toward the next race, hoping that it could come anyday then everyday without a race is a disappointment. god only knows. beach boys.

saw a apple lcd monitor playing bug's life on dvd....it was had the best contrast and sharpness i've ever seen...of any monitor, maybe it was the dvd, maybe it was the scene that was playing...it was amazing. only 1300. i could have gotten it...credit is good?

"money brings bitches, bitches bring lies..."

uploaded lots of music today. uploading more than downloading is gay, unless one has ethernet or the like.

i'll i'm saying...not related to the above...is 'be true to yourself and you will never fall' (mike d)...do what you like, don't compromise your values, views, tastes for/because of those around you. simple as that. eyes on the prize, eyes on the prize.

praying for an afterlife while they steal this one. ah yes politics is great.

indianapolis and st. louis win.

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1-15-00 (02:00)

went to the GM's (of KDVS) 21st birthday party. it was interesting to say the least.

scott played drums for one of the bands that played. he was good the lead sucked. but i know nothing about music so don't take my word for it.

stephanie (hot chick girlfriend of GM) talked with me. i had met her before on the yolo bus, but she didn't remember. she's a poli sci major and everything else i'm sure you're interested in. the point being - i've talked to two separate girls this week, of course i didn't initiate either, but still a good building point. she goes to berkeley, but she'll break up with the GM and move in with me soon enough.

been getting weird hits to page. i care.

my eye contact when talking with new people is about the worst thing on this planet. i was fully talking to stephanie and here i go talking talking talking while looking at the tv, the chips, the ceiling, and once in a while her face. what a bad habit, what a freak. i did it so much that she basically thought i didn't want to talk with her. what a dumb fuck. should have slid her the card. yea right.

oh i did get her e-mail address and gave her mine...she is going to hopefully tell me about an internship program she's trying to get into...the same one (i think) that is run by daniel friedlander, whom i just met on tuesday. weird how things work out. i did all this after acting more retarded than puff daddy in a record store. whatever that means.

girls with boyfriends are more open and honest, more willing to talk. and thus the only girls i ever meet already have boyfriends...because what hot chick is going to talk with me unless she already has a boyfriend and has that feeling of pity that makes her look at the guy on the couch just sitting alone...and go up to him and talk. i think none of this makes sense. imperfection is what this page is all about.

idiot kai (lead to 'round 18' - scott's band) is and idiot.

do you see how i framed that sentence; see how i did it, do.

i am on a roll, i am.

this is the breakout update everyone has been hotly anticipating. a stream of consciousness, if you will. slightly altered and censored because certain individuals do read this crap of crap.

don't ask me about anything i've said here. don't quote me. i'm too drunk to remember any of it anyway. oops spilled the beans.

it should be interesting to see if anyone actually thinks i'm weak enough to ask me later if i really did drink.

eyes on the prize. eyes on the prize.

need to see magnolia again because it fucking rocks more than anything else this year. i should transfer to berkeley. nevermind. good album. nevermind that is.

musicians whom i know complain that the complicated shit they do goes unnoticed unless by other astute musicians. i know the feeling and offer my sympathy, but offer this - sometimes i'll spit out crazy shit like "i should transfer to berkeley. nevermind. good album." and the fact that good album actually relates to something in the previous sentence, or thought, will go unnoticed unless i add "nevermind that is."...one could argue though that those stupid little instances take no skill, but syncopation (or any other crafty musical trick) does. on, in this case, would not be entirely wrong, but just as a musician wants someone to notice their nifty manipulation of chords, beats, whatfuckingever...so does the retard who is so self-indulgent he makes a webpage revolving entirely around his life.

i'm absolutely positive that makes no sense.

one of these days some hottie will browse these pages and say to herself 'oh good lord this sad soul is just like me...he's the fucking shit' then she'll hunt me down and promptly jump my bones. to which i will reply 'insert witty phrase here'

they're the teachers who taught me to fight me

i should do something good tomorrow.

oh i started the malcolm x bio...starts off quick. he's the shit.

i was in poli sci (the presidency) and the teacher told us to introduce each other to those around us...i did so to dorian (tall, dressed in shirt/tie/slacks, and black guy) then we were to come up with someone who we felt was a leader and three qualities that made that person a good leader. we asked each other and he had no answers...neither did our other partner (a retarded looking white frat boy)...this whole time, of course, i had mine picked. besides adam yauch (who neither of the two probably would know) and maybe malcolm x (who is more controversial) there is only one other single person who i consider a great leader for me and for many others - MLK (martin luther king, for those who have forgotten already why they get monday off). they agreed, we came up with a list and afterwards dorian said the only other person he could come up with was FDR...i was down with that. frat boy remained silent, unless to turn and talk to hottie next to him. either seat next to me was empty by the way.

no justice no peace.

peace in yo middle crease. this update is larger than my left leg, erect even. whatever, freak.

movie streak has ended. and this monitor sucks more everyday.

if one reads my webpage in all its glory...archived and more recent updates...everything...one would have a very good sense of who i am. this is nifty. worth the countless hours spent? nooneknows.

i'm outtie. oh and sheryl crow has skills don't care what you think.

1-14-00 (20:24)

deleted large directory from hard drive...

need to watch a movie.

while in sacramento two people commented on the peninsula jacket i was wearing...i told one that it is the only 5 star 5 diamond in southern california and he was impressed. and the other already knew how good it is.

1-14-00 (01:38)

updated recent movies list. the streak stays alive

the VW community is very receptive. networking is a good way to get information.

there is a brotherhood among all bug owners...i've found this to be true and it's a happy thing.

updates are boring now.

CA is the place to be to get parts for your bug.

bugs are easy to work on, but it seems many mechanics don't like working on them.

1-13-00 (02:56)

updated recent movies list. the streak stays alive

napster is the bomb.

not much to say. guess i'll update the schedule finally.

1-12-00 (21:21)

listening to vinyl.

going to play gta, while connected to internet...never done that before.

bored. really.

1-12-00 (01:23)

shadowing a lobbyist is cool. politics can be interesting.

talked to a girl today.

updated recent movies list. the streak stays alive

very tired...up at 6am...it's 1 now.

aimee mann - one and momentum...good tracks. hard to get. thanks phil for momentum.

got vinyl X 3 today. and new shoes. and books.

want to see magnolia again. magnolia is to me what rio bravo is to quentin tarantino.

tired still.

need to do english assignment still.

bye

tarantino has his dates watch rio bravo and if they don't like it then they get the boot.

1-10-00 (19:48)

the latest dr. dre album is good overall, but a couple tracks in particular (still dre, watcher, what's the difference and forgot about dre) are really really good.

it's good to see a gangta rapper mature as much as dre has...i hope the rest of hip-hop follows suit.

first english assignment - observe someone and use details to describe them. chris translation - stalk hot chick and write first chapter to romance novel.

need to buy books.

will be shadowing maurine lobbyist chick tomorrow.

1-9-00 (23:57)

saw matrix again. it stayed good.

downloading mp3s is fun. mostly getting better versions of mp3s i already have. the program i have makes it possible to see ping time, song length, and encoding quality before downloading - that is nice.

driving other people - especially in their car is nerve-racking.

sleep is bad.

monitor is worse.

1-9-00 (02:30)

changed oil which was good.

want to see magnolia again.

updated recent movies list.

1-6-00 (01:31)

dropped class...only 12 units this quarter which sucks, but it makes me exactly on pace to graduate in 4 years...so i'll need to take 15 units/quarter from now on. maybe one quarter i'll kill myself. when i have money or something.

speaking of $ i didn't have a spare 75 bucks to throw away for the 153 class anyway.

1-6-00 (21:41)

rented juice tonight...will watch soon enough.

went looking for jobs...tower isn't hiring, neither is video southeast.

had the other classes today...none tomorrow.

there was a prereq for my 153 class that i didn't know about so i'll have to drop that class. i stayed for the first class and although the teacher seems really good i determined that we would be studying stuff i have little, if any, interest in. constitutional politics and legal justification for court decisions - boring compared to interest groups and the policy process, in my opinion. may or may not look for another class.

this update took two hours

napster.com - great for mp3 search stuff

updated recent movies list. pulp fiction (i saw enough for it to be added).

need to change oil.

1-6-00 (0:20)

updated recent movies list. hard eight (by p.t. anderson) was added.

very tired.

life...like political science i have found...is more art than it is science. try to define as you might when you try to define art or life, alike, you only worry yourself. thought of that during the long, lonely, loud drive home.

1-5-00 (18:20)

updated cd list.

updated recent movies list. any given sunday was added...forgot about it before.

english 5f was good...hot teacher. poli sci 123 is with my aunt's friend teaching...she seems very on top of things and serious. the rest of the classes are tomorrow.

summary of break - it was uneventful and busy. paradoxical, but true.

1-5-00 (0:43)

trip up was long, loud, and lonely. the minidisc player setup works well.

i have lots of crap to do. need to trim nails and wash hands. it looks like i was tooling around with my car...i was.

listening to dark side of the moon...really good so far. wish you were here was good too. it might be tricky working pink floyd into the hierarchy.

updated cd list.

updated shoulds list. magnolia makes it...great film. p.t. anderson is really awesome.

updated recent movies list. do a search for "1-5-00" to find the ones i added...should be 14 of em. i'll cut to the chase for those who are lazy - see magnolia...if you have to chose only one of the 14. like anyone really fucking cares.

battle of los angeles is likely to be a definitive album....only time will tell.

great escape soundtrack is rocking.

updated the archives.

need to get a job. busy busy busy...ala cat's cradle

want to read A Void and Malcolm X Bio

that's about it. details on 'vacation' forthcoming.