Dec99

December 1999 12-30-99 (16:40)

think mom's computer is working now.

uncle's needs work...hopefully the damn scanner and printer get along otherwise i'm fucked.

doing a lot of driving all over the city.

if everyone drove a stick shift the world would be a better place: 1) better gas mileage 2) less braking in traffic leads to more constant flow of traffic

only in LA can you be driving a 67 bug while being surrounded (litterally) by expeditions, 8-series Benzs, Bentleys, etc. at one point today I was surrounded by 8 cars in traffic and the total cost of the 8 must have been over 1 million dollars. Ferraris, Rolls Royces, etc. I see them all over the place driving like idiots while talking on their cell phones. quite amazing.

12-26-99 (19:03)

being at home loses its luster really fast.

i hate computers. note to all: don't ask me for help with computers because i don't like fucking things up even more. that makes two years in a row.

xmas was fine.

bye.

12-20-99 (14:41)

went to another rage against the machine concert...of course it rocked, but we weren't on the floor so it wasn't as good.

there's a big difference between being a spectator to the music and being part of the music.

at any rate it was good...gang starr was a lot better this time and last time they weren't that bad. they learned a lot in regards to dealing with rage against the machine fans. they got down the whole flicking people off thing pretty nicely. they pumped the crowd up more and bored them less, this time around.

the great western forum is kinda gay. they had the sound board in the middle of the floor and then they had refreshments on the floor too. there was less room for people on the floor and making a mad dash for it wasn't really an option like it was at arco arena. they were much better staffed, but then again it is LA.

the mosh pits got pretty bad, but for the most part were pretty woosie-esque. it seemed to me that in sacramento anytime in the mosh pit would have been a serious time, whereas in LA most of the time it was just running in circles, but when they got serious, they got pretty serious.

rage changed their lineup... 1) Testify 2) Guerrilla Radio 3) People of the Sun 4) Calm Like A Bomb 5) Bullet in the Head 6) Ghost of Tom Joad 7) Vietnow 8) Sleep Now In The Fire 9) Born of a Broken Man 10) No Shelter 11) Know Your Enemy 12) War Within A Breath ENCORE 13) Bulls on Parade 14) Rare Filler Track (might be boomerang - NOT year of the boomerang) then he had a speech about Mumia Abu-Jamal 15) Freedom 16) Killing in the Name

need to go xmas shopping.

12-18-99 (12:46)

aol and walmart join forces. microsoft and best buy join forces. gay.

las vegas leads in population growth...who says our country isn't going to hell?

done with school

leave today. won't update very much...maybe twice.

finals were pretty good.

during the hell week my paper grades are as follows: B on the English porn star paper (she said it was 'well written' but too liberal, 88/100 on the History 17A paper, 96/100 on the POL 163 paper, and an A on the English Designated Hitter Debate paper. haven't gotten back the POL 131 paper yet....did the worst on that one i think.

12-17-99 (03:28)

mumia talks on WTO

did final update for the landmark cds in my life thing.

next year's budget is going to suck ass unless my job pays well. it won't. car and rent increase (again).

i don't know what to get hattie, scott, gio, or stacy for xmas. i want to give custom CDs, but most people, except stacy and maybe vern, don't seem to really enjoy them.

i've got a final at 1030. i should study for that some more.

i slept 18 hours...from 9am to 3am. that's a record for me.

i'm done with work. they threw a big ass party for me and everything. that's a lie.

jon was using my line for the last 30 something hours...but now it seems to be done.

winamp changed their site big time.

i'm going to buy apocalypshit the CD tomorrow.

my back hurts because i slept too long. i may be getting sick. damn stacy.

updated recent movies list. updated cd list.

not sure why i update mp3 list or cd list or movies list or any of those stupid lists because people don't really look at them and they only waste my time and make it easier to procrastinate.

bye

12-15-99 (01:02)

vern's got this idea of posting a few CDs that made him a man on johnny's webpage. it's kind of like my 3 cd set of landmark songs i made when i was bored and really into making mix CDs. it's a good idea, of course, but it's also more 'self-indulgent' than a webpage. this is the enigma that is vern. naturally i have no problem at all with it, after all i post more self-indulgent things than that - my papers online, my gay cd list, etc....all on MY webpage...boy i'm so full of myself it's sickening. at any rate i think it's a good idea so in addition to the 'landmarks' cds i made a while back, i'll also be posting a few full albums that have defined certain periods of my life....oh and vern don't take the above commentary personally if you happen to read this, take it for what it is - an observation. and should you happen to observe that i'm an asshole then, please, point that out. here

i'm craving mountain dew...i'm officially a fiend.

ac/dc - big balls. very good song.

12-14-99 (20:02)

if i'm not at home i'm at work, school, or out with one of my roommates. this implies i have nowhere else to go. i should get new friends.

when i think of a song i usually can't remember how the beat goes. i can usually remember approx. how long it is. i have to watch a movie several times before remembering specific scenes with any degree of consistency.

my keyboard and maybe some IDE cables are the only things left from my original computer. this is not to imply that anyone should/does care

bored.

having a cd-writer certainly is nice.

going to start another mindless project - make a list of CDs i 'need' to copy for my huge waste of money/cds/time - the portable cd collection. i wish other people organized shit as well as i do so i could borrow from them as easily.

for being so grounded in reality i sure am quite the dreamer.

tristan says we should eat lunch and talk...i say he should eat me. i'm unforgiving - i should discover jesus.

12-14-99 (10:31)

i almost regret going to the rage concert before any others. it amazed and moved me so much that i don't think any other show could do that. the beastie boys will be amazing in a different way, but other than that i think most concerts are going to suck in comparison.

i took one final today...history 17a, american history up to the civil war. wasn't so great. got back the paper in that class was good enough to take away the potential bad grade on the final. the TA likes me too so the discussion grade should be decent...i actually talked in class so that doesn't hurt...uh well most of the time it didn't.

pretty much have enough money for xmas and car insurance so that's good considering i don't have a job as of the day after tomorrow. i propose instead of having to say 'the day after tomorrow'...we should from this day forth say: 'twomorrows' - it seems that if 'tomorrow' can be replaced with 'the day after today', then there should be something for 'the day after tomorrow' - just a thought.

next final is tomorrow at 130pm - shouldn't be too bad.

'because i got it like that' - jungle brothers. good song.

you should do something today.

12-13-99 (05:26)

yes, sleep patterns are not normal at all.

updated recent movies list. saw green mile tonight.

my friend steve works at the theater and let us in around midnight and showed me how the projector works and everything...then we had the theater to ourselves the whole night it was really cool. hattie and manuel brought stacy and some food. i'd like to work at a theater during the nights so i could setup the reels and just watch a movie whenever i wanted. damn that would be cool. the movie was good and sad. i cried. tom hanks is good, i have to admit it.

put a bunch of my cds into the cdplayer.ini file...somewhat useless...but might come in handy if i make a giant cd list again.

now that i'm done with my papers i just have finals. yip.

i woke up at around 11pm so it's around 4pm for me...which means i should be awake for another 7 hours or so. i have a final on tuesday at 8am...so maybe i'll go to sleep around 2pm and then wake up around 11pm and then study till my final take it, come home, sleep, study for next final, take it, sleep, study, study, sleep, study, study, take finals, have sex, sleep, have sex, go home, sleep. or something.

12-12-99 (12:41)

sleep patterns are amazing lately.

SF plays Atlanta today...there is a good chance they win this one

updated the recent movies list

need to buy lots of xmas presents...or make lots of cds...

i might be driving up to davis...in a 67 VW bug.

the top 100 lists are starting to pop up more and more and i haven't found even one that i agree with on more than 50% of the choices...i'm sure all my friends are tired of hearing my bitching about this or that choice.

12-11-99 (07:04)

well i cleaned the mess...only took a couple hours...i'm tired.

chili peppers do a good version of "love rollercoaster"

forgot what was going here.

going to play a game.

12-11-99 (04:34)

party was overall a success.

my monitor has turned off twice in the last 30 seconds.

updated recent movies list updated papers list, not especially happy about the papers, but you win some you lose some.

drinking to the point that it alters your behavior is something i don't understand. i also don't really understand love...so take that for what you will.

place is really dirty...all will be clean though.

my 5-10 shift sucked more than any shift i've ever worked...kids were asking for it...whatever "it" means. extremely annoying. i was tired all day...and look at me...awake past my bedtime again.

i'm itchy all over and it sucks.

got paid, but didn't pickup check - dumb.

manuel gave me a ride so that was cool...i didn't miss too much of the party.

i wanted to write something here, but i forget what it was...

windows 98 is slow. microsoft is the king of false advertising. bill gates should die.

12-10-99 (01:13)

had overnight...didn't go to sleep...been awake too long.. have to revise my personal statement and write some papers on short stories i read. i manage time like i mack on chicks - i don't.

party it tomorrow, hopefully i sleep by then. get paid tomorrow...hell yea. it should be good

i got my turntable, but wouldn't you know it - the counterweight was nowhere to be found...so hopefully the woman send me one, otherwise i'm screwed...the front is way too heavy...other than that it's great...wish i could play a record.

my monitor sucks more today than ever...turned off, by itself mind you, about 8 times today....i think i'll just keep it on. i think it needs time to warm up so i'll just leave it warm if the computer is on.

i've been tired since 5pm when i was falling asleep in class.

i hope my english teacher doesn't think i'm a slacker...i hope i get an A in that class. i hope i pass poli sci 131. all will be revealed in a couple weeks.

12-09-99 (0948)

who's the gutterslutt on my message board?

it's funny, jessica t. (a girl who used to be at the shelter - she's "Rebecca" in my story), was one client i had the least hope for...and as such i looked at her with a certain amount of disdain and sadness that someone could be so fucked up - having sex with 30 year olds...whoring herself out...doing drugs, etc. but then come back later and, after a couple runaways, turn around 180 degrees...it was fucking uncanny. so at one time i saw her as everything that was fucked up about society and then later everything that could be so good. weird like that.

next wednesday is my last day there. i'm not expecting a going away party.

12-07-99 (22:54)

well i'm still awake...gotten 4.5 hours of sleep in the last 3 days almost. i'm going to sleep soon.

the paper is due on thursday, it turns out that my strategy early in the year to fool myself ended up working.

updated cd list.

catalog shit is going to work...if not i kill the planet.

in total i consumed 5 liters of mountain dew in less than a week...not as bad as last quarter, but this morning i was tripping out pretty bad...my head was having problems and for about 3 hours i couldn't write for shit...i'll use my extra time to proof-read the essay that isn't due until thursday...flesh it out a bit on the overnight maybe.

need to tidy up room.

12-07-99 (10:51)

got about another page (double spaced 12 pt) to go before it's finished. i have over 5 hours before it's due. good.

printing out draft...need to flesh out...organization is fair...arguments are good...sticking to topic is decent...bleh.

i spent all night getting this room warm...it's nice and toasty now...at least a 4 degree difference from the kitchen.

12-07-99 (09:51)

around half way done.

12-7-99 (08:30)

mountain dew officially has fucked with my head...i'm having troubles now.

listening to rage...skipped miles davis...need to get back on track.

killing in the name of!

12-7-99 (06:35)

working on the intro now...two paragraphs through...coming along....must set good base.

dj shadow playing...then coleman and davis.

07:07...oh shit...the mountain dew doesn't taste very good anymore...when that happened last time i got wasted...better lay off it for a while.

12-7-99 (05:39)

having something to write about and knowing an effective way to organize it are two separate things...having trouble outlining shit under nice clear categories....don't want to just say before and after cold war...maybe before then under that have goals, policies to achieve goals and then the same for after? don't think that would work...ahhh

why does everyone dog (knock, put down, etc) 70s music? if not for funk, disco, and glam rock there wouldn't have been the 80s rock of the scorpions, skid row, guns n' roses...as for funk and disco...uhm can someone say hip-hop? shiiit! now knocking 90s gay hop and the boy bands of the 80s and 90s i can understand becuase neither will ever amount to anything except future mockery.

whodini is bumping now...before was fu-shnickens...go hip-hop.

next is dj shadow...both cds of the preemptive strike...speaking of which i should get back to writing about the cold war and its end having an effect on US democracy.

90% of the 30 richest countries are in temperate (as opposed to tropical) zones.

67% of the world's infections are in Africa.

GNP per capita in Sweden is over 30K, in France its around 15K, in Sudan its 59 bucks. remember, though, that they farm to subsist so if they didn't make any money at all they would still be living...albeit without DVD and Windows...as for the latter they are lucky bastards...the former (DVD) i can understand them not liking having to do without.

of the children who die before the age of five - 98% are from Africa.

Burundi life expectancy - 41. Canada 76. Congo 48.

5:55 someone's car alarm is going off.

strategy is spelled using one had all the to the end...it's hard to type strategy fast. fuck, however, is really easy.

if you know how to program make a program for me: i'd like to be able to say to people when giving them my phone number that my number is "newsexy" or whatever it might be...however i don't have the time to figure out if my phone number works out to spell anything...so make a program that does that and you will be cool...and kind of a dork.

12-7-99 (4:53)

starting outline now. i suck. win98 sucks more.

12-7-99 (04:03)

stomach be hurting.

no doubt cd (tragic kingdom) has more funk elements than i thought...it's better than the last time i listened to it too.

haven't started yet...i have 12 hours left. going to write the outline right now.

man the no doubt cd is a lot more diverse sounding than i ever remember. weird. not saying it's a check your head or anything, but still...

my interview with Luke is up on his page...it has its moments, but overall marc's was more funny, i think.

have lots of little things to tend to...like unclutter room, etc....can wait.

johnny is cool.

advil tastes sweet.

good chance that i get the car during the xmas break.

12-7-99 (03:13)

still haven't started the writing yet.

epmd rocking it.

party is on friday...need to make tapes for that

my receiver has been getting played all day lately. good boy.

12-7-99 (01:23)

took a three hour nap after class and initial library research.

now i'm reading the books. i have about 15 hours to finish...oddly enough i looked at the syllabus and it says it's a 10-15 page paper, but he changed it to a max of 10 (this i'm sure about...it's in my notes), but on my calender i have it as due tomorrow...the syllabus says it's due thursday...but i'm not risking it...i may have been a really smart guy and written it in on my calender earlier than it was due just to make sure the paper was good. or not and it's just a mistake.

fuck computers.

I Fought The Law and the law won.

12-6-99 (09:56)

finished.

finished the english paper too! be wary of that one...i hope i don't get kicked out of school =)

it's nice and toasty in my room...well not once you open the door, then all the 63 degree weather from the kitchen comes in my room...dammit!

updated the interesting shit page. be wary of that too. very wary.

my stomach hurts. i want a ride to school and a ride back. i have to research mad shit at the library as soon as i get out of class....and start on another paper.

12-6-99 (07:17)

coming along, but slowly...i'll finish, but with how much time to spare?

listening to muddy waters.

12-06-99 (06:08)

not doing too badly. more than half way done...approaching this in an extremely scattered way...i'm bouncing all over the place and starting new paragraphs before finishing others...it might suck.

listening to marilyn manson...but that's not why the paper is scattered...it's because i'm not sure what they want or if i even have enough information. i don't know if he wants an analysis of documents or merely for me to use documents to support my case. what is my argument? i guess that differing views regarding spirituality and property between indians and white bastards led to increased conflict culminating in my living in california where no white person should have lived unless surrounded by indians.

12-6-99 (04:44)

i'm pretty much just starting...way behind.

i need to do my english paper too - it's a 'personal statement' like the ones for admission into grad school. here's my plan...it'll make the paper go by waaay faster: many of the same qualities that make me such a great fucker (note to self: come up with a better word here) also have helped me achieve success as a scholar. my ability to get hard after cum shot and prepare for yet another shot at a different angle has made me the desire of all porn directors; this talent in my studies, too, has proved useful when faced with difficult situations (use some example like...when i got hit by a car and run over repeatedly i was able to come back write several back to back 10 page papers - the cum shot of academia). my versatility in porn has proven useful and even dubbed me 'position guru' - in my studies my inclination for and ability in several subjects has garnered much respect in the liberal arts field - having taken classes from geology and physics to sociology and philosophy. i'll sum up - as you may have gathered i'm an interesting, complex, unique individual. i think this diverse combination makes me a good partner with your university of the same qualities.

elders...please don't reprimand me for the above.

we'll see how it works....it's almost 5 i must start...paper is due at 11am. 5 pages or so to go....thanks to the earlier rough draft.

listened to harmonia 76, tangerine dream, enya, perrey and kingsley, and now the carpenters...they rock....baby baby baby oh baby...i love you...i really do!

12-6-99 (01:07)

in almost three hours i haven't gotten anywhere...distractions...lack of good material...i'm tired...this is sucking right now.

need to listen to rage or shower or run or get laid or find something of interest in the reading.

mountain dew isn't kickin my ass at all...built up tolerance? gay.

BDP (boogie down productions) was a bit of a disappointment.

oh yea i got another cd too - harmonia 76 with brian eno...pretty decent.

updated wish list

12-5-99 (21:22)

I got eleven cds and all but four were hip hop. one (wyclef's) was just for the duplicate case so i didn't count that.

hip hop is rocking right now. i've further divided my cd case...i used to have rock, techno, compilations, spoken word/comedy, jazz, and classical all seperate...now i added a hip hop category.

so far the biggest surprise is the EPMD...they fucking rock more than i expected...a tribe called quest and Ice-T i expected to be good, but i wasn't sure about epmd...as it turns out they're pretty dope...sampling bob marley, steve miller, kook and the gang, beastie boys, etc. as a genre hip hop is my favorite...jazz is more interesting and has more history, but in 20 years hiphop has come so far...except lately with the advent of what i call gay hop or pop hop. rock of course is a huge genre so i don't really count that.

i got coleman's free jazz which has a bonus take. and miles davis' bitches brew so my jazz collection earned 200% of the respect it once had, just with those additions. now to get some bird and diz. i also got isaac hayes. overall i'm extremely pleased with the 35 dollars i spent.

i'm also extremely happy with the versatility of my cd case.

i need to start preparing for my paper now....i'll update periodically during it.

just found a beastie boys sample (that is, a sample the beastie boys used) from epmd..."it's like the lotto - you have to be in it to win it." they used it on paul's boutique (1989) from epmd strictly business (1988). dope. god i love hip hop for that reason, among others.

i like the content of luke's page.

i like the design of phil's page.

i like the diversity of johnny's (i still consider it johnny's) page.

i've noticed that win98 scrolls faster when moving around using the arrows.

12-5-99 (10:55)

overnight was fast...i'm tired.

i have 9 pager due tomorrow. great.

ten pager due the next day. very bad.

i also have a one page english paper (assigned on wed.) due on monday. fuck.

SF is losing to Cin. Mariucci is going to get fired. we suck. fuck.

updated cd list

i think i watched a movie recently, but i forget what it was...or if i really did....maybe part of a movie?

i shattered my cd goal...i have 341 (335 was the goal)...i still have xmas and 26 more days to buy cds.

i have no job as of the 16th.

what if nothing existed? going anymore into that would be futile.

i have lots of new cds...will listen to while doing my history and poli sci papers.

mountain dew is only 2 liters...may need more.

i'm tired.

my job has sucked big time at parts, but i'm going to miss the good kids...some of them were really cool.

memories. track was the bomb. so was getting action. so was not having ten page papers. so was being a freshman

good night. wake me up by 7.

12-04-99 (09:35)

15 hours shift is done and gone. have overnight tonight...i'm going to sleep.

20 pages of writing due by tuesday. shitorama.

i'm over my cd goal, but i'll update that later.

updated recent movies list

tired.

12-02-99 (12:37)

two papers down. two to go...totalling 19 pages...3 of those pages are done.

i listened to so many cds tonight it's crazy.

i'm not tired, but i will be...in 6 hours after i get out of class. damn.

12-02-99 (10:55)

been slacking...still not done. maybe another hour. another full page of single space to go i'd guess.

updated papers list...will be up by 2pm (POL 163 paper)

12-02-99 (09:31)

question of the day - who is the ebay user with the highest feedback? i've seen over 5000...if you've seen higher tell me.

12-02-99 (08:36)

my back hurts - massage me please.

i'm a good way through it.

may get to take a one hour nap...i'm not tired though. and after nap proofread this sucker.

i have 6 more hours. cake.

tom petty is bumping now...before that was tool, preceded by pi soundtrack, elvis costello, kraftwerk, orbital, green day, white zombie, queen, aerosmith, deep purple, perrey & kingsley, air, and elo. dman i love 5 da 5 disc changer. next is ten years after...then i'll exchange four more cds.

12-02-99 (07:52)

let it flow, let yourself go, slow and low that is the tempo. - beastie boys

flowing now. not ebbing.

12-02-99 (06:22)

w-r-i-t-e-r-s b-l-o-c-k

12-02-99 (06:00)

that was a long break.

http://us.imdb.com/bottom_100_films (i've seen about five of them...nice list)

12-02-99 (04:12)

moving right along...have the preface and intro pretty much down...now to the bulk...after a break.

12-02-99 (02:05)

starting...

12-02-99 (01:04)

suffered major setback...talked to phil, but it's all good.

i'm downloading adobe golive 4.0 - html editor type shit.

i'm downloading adobe photoshop 5.5 - i have no use for this (since i have 5.0 already), but i want to download.

12-02-99 (00:22)

dinner took longer than expected, but that's fine. paper will start soon enough.

exaggeration is the root of ALL evil.

if there is one thing i can't stand it's intolerance.

win98 takes longer to log onto the server.

12-01-99 (22:47)

updated archive page...the november update was the largest ever...60K.

starting paper...i have a good base of research down. i'm going to eat and then recap my research...write a brief outline...dick around on the computer and get started around 1am.

maybe i'll get a couple of easy internet quotes too.

i'm doing (yet another) paper on the tobacco industry. this time it's on the anti-smoking lobby. i did one paper on the likelihood of the government cutting the tobacco industry a deal...that was freshman year. then last year i did a paper on the result of knowledge and the movement to ban television advertising of tobacco. by my senior year i'll be able to write a book. speaking of which - i've used the same book as a reference all three times.

i'm most worried about the paper due on tuesday for my foreign policy of the US class.

i put in my resignation today...well actually stacy is taking it in for me. i'm not working overnight...hattie wanted to switch and it actually works out better this way. only problem is i have work from 5p to 8am (fri. - sat.). that sucks. i kinda wanted to work the overnight with steven on thursday so i could help him get away from sandy, but doesn't look like that would work...i have class from 11-1 the next day, then radio show from 3-4:20, then of course the 5p-8a shift...which was oddly approved. usually they don't allow 15hour shifts. means lots of dough on my penultimate pay check, which is fine by me.

i totally forgot it was december...that's why it took me a while to update the archive page...and i've been writing down all purchases in my november budget...darn.

water isn't boiling yet. having pasta.

spell check on my email program works after the format (before it didn't).

i have more program crashes, but i've only had one major freeze - thanks to IE 5.0 of course. i'm going to upgrade right now.

i'll be updating this a lot as a break throughout the night/morning/afternoon. =)

12-01-99 (15:24)

i want a new monitor more than anything else on my wish list. my current monitor turns off whenever it feels like it. this is a very bad situation when writing papers or doing anything else. i'm actually afraid it's going to blow up in my face, which would suck. it's lasted pretty long considering it was in the basement of the peninsula hotel gathering dust for probably 3 or more years.

went to sleep at 8am...2.5 hours of sleep.

i have lots of material for my paper...23.5 hours left before it's due.

i should take a quick nap now. oops i need to eat first. then i'll sleep for a couple hours. wake me up at 6pm.

bye.

12-01-99 (00:30)

updated recent movies list. again.

it's december - pretty crazy.

first quarter of third year is over in a couple weeks.

this is the beginning of the rest of your (and my) life.

been having quite the time finishing up the catalogs...i've got it down so that i can let the computer make most of the replacements to separate the fields though, so that is good.

gn'r live cd is good - they're a better live band than i thought

one paper down...three to go.

researching for the second right now.

don't know what to do for new years...phil wants to go to jon's but there is going to be quite a few of gaylords there. looks like the trip to SF might not work either. we'll see.

i should go.